Hi, I’m Nikki Fiszer
Hi, I’m Nikki Fiszer, and what you are reading is my home.
Instead of writing paragraph after paragraph about myself and who I am, I think I can spice things up a tad and walk you down memory lane with me. Through photos and text I will share my life story, uncut and unhinged, filled with everything you should know about me… and make this an out of the box experience just like me, myself and I 🙂
Then & Now (my life through the years)
2001
On February 4, 2001, I was born in Oak Lawn, Illinois, into a very Polish, very big, family
My mum was in labor for over 40 hours… and she had me just after midnight on a Sunday… whoops, sorry mum..
She knew from that moment I was going to be very stubborn… which I am
2002
I was an energetic child, who cried, was difficult, and again, stubborn. The only way she was able to put me to sleep was in a car, driving for hours in the same circle, I guess I just really liked cars
It was really just my mum and I, the other half was not present for the most part, it was hard, and at the same time manageable
We also didn’t know that heaven was just around the corner, not the place, I am talking about a person
2003
I started developing quite the personality, I’m talkin very unique
But boy was I a trouble maker, I definitely already had ADHD (I was diagnosed in 05), and was definitely a hot mess… I mean, I cut my bangs off at school because I was put in time out… and picking fights with the other kids… and acted like the total diva… I still am actually
But I can say I was still loved, and cared for by my mum, and my family
2004
The year I met the man I call dad today, everything changed then
I would have never known that this man would become my best friend and my hero
Its because of him, the reason why I love cars, dad garage music (aka Nickelback, who are my favorite to this day), working hard, and my crazy sense of humor (he’s the funniest person I know)
During this year my Babcia (Grandmother) and I spent a lot of time together, she lived in Ohio, and was definitely responsible for some of the things I am today
2005
I was still a rockstar, living my best ADHD life, with a who-ville style button nose, which to this day is pretty iconic
and at the end of this year, I found out my mum was pregnant with a boy
2006
Then in the summer of this year, my first baby brother was born, named, Thomas, after our dad
I’m not gonna lie, I did not love the idea of mums love being split in two, but then it wasn’t long before I realized, he was the missing piece I needed, it never came to me how alone I felt sometimes
At least I had understood straight away that I needed to be the best big sister I possibly could be
2007
At this point, I was very attached to my Babcia, she was the most amazing and sweetest woman I have known to date
I remember this picture to the point I know what I was thinking and what was going on
And the reality of it all, my Babcia tried to stop me from eating the candied roses on her 50th birthday cake (look at my face, it says it all)… then she walked away to take a photo
When she came back, the roses were gone, my mouth was red, and she just smiled and kissed my forehead
2008
This was the year I found out that I was destined to be a creator of sorts, I loved to draw, paint, write, dance, anything in the realm of creation, I was there
I spent the whole summer at my Babcias, there she showed me her passion of gardening, specifically roses and sunflowers, it quickly became mine too
And this is also when I found my passion for cooking and baking (I’m kind of a pro now)
2009 communion
I had my first communion, at the Catholic Church in Illinois
I love this memory, everyone was there, and everyone had an amazing time
This was the year that I wrote and illustrated my very first book called, The Family Of Polar Bears (spoiler alert: one of the bears got locked up by the three little pigs… the crime? no idea)
2010
I genuinely dont think that there is a caption for this photo, other then, a certain someone found what her favorite holiday was…
If you didn’t guess it, its Halloween
And no, I dont like horror movies… like, at all
2011
The family went to Mexico, and it was here that I developed a love for speed, obviously besides going on car rides with dad…
But mum and Tommy were too scared to ride with dad because of his need for speed (as if they didn’t know I already called dibs because I wanted to have fun)
2012
We spent the summer bouncing around every city in Poland
This will remain my favorite vacation of all time, my Babcia was there and everything felt so perfect
It really was, I got to witness my dad ask my mum to marry him
I will forever hold a piece of that country in my heart, its were I come from and it really made me connect to my culture even more (as if I wasn’t polish enough)
2013
This was the hardest year of my life to date, I got to witness first hand what its like to lose the person you love so much
Just two days before my birthday I saw my Babcia being buried into the ground, along with a lot of my happiness and then the world through my eyes lost a lot of its color, just black and white stayed
So I did what I knew best, I picked up a pen, and started to write, everything I felt, turning pages into poetry
2014
In 2014, my parents had their wedding
It was a roller coaster of emotions, high spirits, excitement, anticipation and so much more
The day we all officially became a real family
2015
The beginning of 2015 brought so many new beginnings, we moved to a different area in Illinois, I started high school, continued to write and practice art, making content, and another surprise came out of no where…
My mum was pregnant with another baby boy, and when I first met him, some color started coming back into my life, his name was Alek
2016
The more I wrote, the more my pieces were being recognized, I was in advanced creative writing and I won my first award ever for a poem called, “To Be The Moon”
I started becoming more independent as I was helping around the house with Alek and spending all of my free time with him instead of partying with my friends (do not regret it at all)
2017
Besides getting my drivers license, this year was pretty boring
I was writing poem after poem, short story after short story, quickly collecting well over 900 pieces in that year alone
And I started taking photos of all the varsity players in action after school
Then after that, it was straight into the art room to see what I could come up with
2018
This was the year of absolute wreck havoc
Junior year was the one were no one listened at all, antsy as senior year was getting closer and closer
I worked as a manager at a Barnes and Noble Starbucks, so I really had zero complaints, I was reading and crafting at the same time so my ADHD was gnarly
I also had my confirmation in the Catholic Church as well
2019
I got accepted into Northern Illinois University for Nursing and Creative writing
Then a few months passed by and I was in tears walking to get my diploma, high school was the hardest time for me
four of my closest friends lost their battle to mental health within the same month, probably being the biggest reason as to why I slowly started building a company to advocate mental health
2020
We all know what happened this year… COVID
But before that I was apart of a sorority at NIU, filled with toxic girls and overall was not the best environment for me
I say this because, if I didn’t join that sorority, I would have never met my best friend, Hope, who is now my sister… no one liked how we bonded with each other but we did not care what so ever
Before covid I was taken out of my freshman creative writing classes and placed in an advanced senior level creative writing class, being the first freshman and youngest student to receive an award for a short story I wrote.. It was a state competition and I came out on top… those emotions where unreal.. but I owe it all to Hope, she was in my corner and I was in hers
2021
Now that school was online, I started to feel upset over the fact I was stuck at home, unable to go to class.. so I made a change
I changed my major to creative writing and marketing and transferred out of state to Arizona, to continue my path, but this time in warmth and a fresh start
Little did I know 2022 was going to bring me peace
2022
I published my first book, titled, “She Learned To Love”
It was a collection of all of my pieces from high school, I self published it on amazon, talking about trauma, mental health, grief, and healing from it and pushing forward, soon after I made my company official, a blog for mental health
after my 21st birthday I started missing my Babcia more, needing to talk to her even though its been 9 years since her passing, but on her birthday, she sent me an angel
A silver maine coon, just born stumbled into my life, and in the end we both saved each other, he became my safe place and I knew my Babcia had sent me him
I named him Fish
2023
With life being life, I knew I was destined for more outside of college, so I dropped out and moved back home
I developed a profession for marketing, creative writing, content creation and so much more, and thats when it really hit me…
I went to modeling school years ago, and did content and art programs, so why not combine all of it and make a plan for something bigger
So I started my influencer/content creator/marketer/blogger journey
2024 (now)
And here we are now, 2024
I have an amazing marketing job, slowly growing my socials, and being what I am meant to be all at once, and I couldn’t love it more than I already do
color has finally been brought back into my life and I can see things more clearly
So I made this site, dedicated to my life and others
The title of this site is called, With Love, Nikki Fiszer
All because this is my love letter to the world
